Changing
Reminiscing:
So, today, I have had a lul in the work that I need to do, so, for shit, started going back through my past, in a pseudo road trip if you will, with only a knapsack filled with old memories. I was reminded if of the things of the people that I had know through work, where they are now, how they are doing. Then, I slowly drifted back into the years of old, the times that I was in High School, reminded of the times that I had back then. The people that I had like, and, at times the stuff that I might have missed. I find myself mildly amused at how people have changed, especially the ones that I liked, maybe it isn't necessarily that -they- have changed more of that my general self-changing opinions of liking or not liking someone have changed to the point where I find that, for some reason or another, I just don't anymore. It isn't a case of despising them, but, more to the point where I wouldn't act like I did back then towards them. On the other hand, the people that I didn't have a thing for back in the day I have found to have gotten more attractive. Is it maturity, have they just grown-up more than what I remember them from in the past? I can't really say for sure.
Success:
On a similar note, I have been also looking at the success-fullness of people that I have gone to school with. Some are now getting their masters, others, married (some with kids, even), most people are out of college, however. And where am I? How do we really judge success? Is it by how much school we have taken? What kind of job we are working? Annual salary? In relation to past generations, I feel that I am well off, not overly successful, but not living in a box either. I have somehow managed to get myself into a job market that inter-changes both school and practical experience, and, depending on who you talk to, who you interview with and who you want to work for, the practical experience is exponentially greater than the schooling itself. This for me, if a good thing, after about 2 years of school, I got tired of it, I am literally 6 classes short of getting a 2-year AAS and allowing me to transfer to UW for their CS program. The fact is is that I got tired of going to class, I wasn't living under my parent's roof anymore, I had to work and support myself, I didn't have time for school, mainly because it either didn't fit into my work week, or, I didn't have the self-motivation to signup/do the work for the class.
Regrets:
One can't live without regrets, there is always something small and minuscule that you might have missed. One of the things that I really regret from my past is not getting closure with all of the things that I had done in the past. Relationships that I basically just.... walked away from. Some of those I miss, and I think about it, why did I lose those relationships, was it just that I forgot to try and keep in touch, I am not really sure. What I do know, is that the relationships that I have, and some of the ones that I -had- I'd like to keep and/or reconnect with. For those of you that are from my past, the ones that I lost contact with, lets do coffee or something sometime, catch up on old times.
So, today, I have had a lul in the work that I need to do, so, for shit, started going back through my past, in a pseudo road trip if you will, with only a knapsack filled with old memories. I was reminded if of the things of the people that I had know through work, where they are now, how they are doing. Then, I slowly drifted back into the years of old, the times that I was in High School, reminded of the times that I had back then. The people that I had like, and, at times the stuff that I might have missed. I find myself mildly amused at how people have changed, especially the ones that I liked, maybe it isn't necessarily that -they- have changed more of that my general self-changing opinions of liking or not liking someone have changed to the point where I find that, for some reason or another, I just don't anymore. It isn't a case of despising them, but, more to the point where I wouldn't act like I did back then towards them. On the other hand, the people that I didn't have a thing for back in the day I have found to have gotten more attractive. Is it maturity, have they just grown-up more than what I remember them from in the past? I can't really say for sure.
Success:
On a similar note, I have been also looking at the success-fullness of people that I have gone to school with. Some are now getting their masters, others, married (some with kids, even), most people are out of college, however. And where am I? How do we really judge success? Is it by how much school we have taken? What kind of job we are working? Annual salary? In relation to past generations, I feel that I am well off, not overly successful, but not living in a box either. I have somehow managed to get myself into a job market that inter-changes both school and practical experience, and, depending on who you talk to, who you interview with and who you want to work for, the practical experience is exponentially greater than the schooling itself. This for me, if a good thing, after about 2 years of school, I got tired of it, I am literally 6 classes short of getting a 2-year AAS and allowing me to transfer to UW for their CS program. The fact is is that I got tired of going to class, I wasn't living under my parent's roof anymore, I had to work and support myself, I didn't have time for school, mainly because it either didn't fit into my work week, or, I didn't have the self-motivation to signup/do the work for the class.
Regrets:
One can't live without regrets, there is always something small and minuscule that you might have missed. One of the things that I really regret from my past is not getting closure with all of the things that I had done in the past. Relationships that I basically just.... walked away from. Some of those I miss, and I think about it, why did I lose those relationships, was it just that I forgot to try and keep in touch, I am not really sure. What I do know, is that the relationships that I have, and some of the ones that I -had- I'd like to keep and/or reconnect with. For those of you that are from my past, the ones that I lost contact with, lets do coffee or something sometime, catch up on old times.
Posted on 27 Mar 2009 by Kad
Updates
Uh, making some minor updates today, bored at work, the snow isn't helping. Anyways, got the initial outline for my firewall/DHCP script done, just need to write the code for it. Other than that, adding a boxen page.
More to come later.
More to come later.
Posted on 26 Feb 2009 by Kad
Dear 216.112.152.49
you are banned. :)
Thx for trying to log into my server though, made me feel loved. :)
iptables -A INPUT -i eth1 -p tcp -m tcp -s 216.112.152.49 -j REJECT
Thx for trying to log into my server though, made me feel loved. :)
iptables -A INPUT -i eth1 -p tcp -m tcp -s 216.112.152.49 -j REJECT
Posted on 09 Jul 2008 by Kad
For those of you that care
I have been REALLY busy with work, etc.
I managed to get a job back at Microsoft, it is fun, there is a lot of busy work and all but, in the end, is really fun, and quite a learning experience.
Sadly, I don't have access to ssh or anything else on the servers so that I can work on them in the time when I am not doing a whole lot of work. :(
I don't even have access to.... webmin. :(
I managed to get a job back at Microsoft, it is fun, there is a lot of busy work and all but, in the end, is really fun, and quite a learning experience.
Sadly, I don't have access to ssh or anything else on the servers so that I can work on them in the time when I am not doing a whole lot of work. :(
I don't even have access to.... webmin. :(
Posted on 02 Jul 2008 by Kad
Old site from server up
I got the old server site up at here and you can check out everything inside that, if you feel like it. Sadly, I can't get phpsysinfo working, so you can't see the system info for that machine. :(
Posted on 21 Apr 2008 by Kad
Almost broken my record
11:12:51 up 101 days, 14:53, 5 users, load average: 2.48, 1.72, 0.78
Current uptime record for me is 112 days. I am going to BARELY make that before I move.
Current uptime record for me is 112 days. I am going to BARELY make that before I move.
Posted on 17 Apr 2008 by Kad
lol, emmy
19:58 < Not-So-Jolly-Roger> I leave myself open for amusement.
19:58 < Not-So-Jolly-Roger> oh shit
19:58 < Not-So-Jolly-Roger> i meant
19:58 < Not-So-Jolly-Roger> no
19:58 < Not-So-Jolly-Roger> wait
19:58 < Not-So-Jolly-Roger> oh shit
19:58 < Not-So-Jolly-Roger> i meant
19:58 < Not-So-Jolly-Roger> no
19:58 < Not-So-Jolly-Roger> wait
Posted on 31 Mar 2008 by Kad
work work work
So, been busy with work, I swear.
I am going to try and get this page better organized and then work on some fun things, like user logins and different colors, cookies, etc.
I might try and set up my gentoo VMWare system up on my laptop so that I can do some on-the-go work with my laptop sans-internet. Then just migrate it back over to the server.
I am going to try and get this page better organized and then work on some fun things, like user logins and different colors, cookies, etc.
I might try and set up my gentoo VMWare system up on my laptop so that I can do some on-the-go work with my laptop sans-internet. Then just migrate it back over to the server.
Posted on 21 Mar 2008 by Kad
Woo
Alright, so, I now have a news manager on the site so I can post and do things like that.
Anyways, wrote an interesting article over at my LiveJournal because I am weird and emo like that.... or something. Either way, check it out.
On another note, I'm gonna work on getting my white-papers started again. I have been REALLY busy with work and all of that stuff. In addition, I am going to migrate the CURRENT ones that I have, to a better format, maybe .doc or even a PDF, who knows.
Working on CSS and a better layout.
STAY TUNED
Anyways, wrote an interesting article over at my LiveJournal because I am weird and emo like that.... or something. Either way, check it out.
On another note, I'm gonna work on getting my white-papers started again. I have been REALLY busy with work and all of that stuff. In addition, I am going to migrate the CURRENT ones that I have, to a better format, maybe .doc or even a PDF, who knows.
Working on CSS and a better layout.
STAY TUNED
Posted on 11 Mar 2008 by Kad
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